At that time I was always feeling depressed and thought perhaps I had done something wrong, like I had not proclaimed that I cannot tolerate [violating the group rules anonymously] at all in advance, it is one of my two most intolerable things (of course I also don't like others violating the group rules onymously, but when committing it anonymously, I'll be angrier). And I sometimes walked on the road, when it rained, I cried, because the raindrops could conceal my tears.
A few months later, I was in the rain. I listened to the music with my smartphone. The song in my earphones is [The Funeral of the Roses] from Xu Hao. I heard the lyrics:
Always recalling the past and blaming myself
Always thinking of you unconsciously
Now you are already too unattainable for me
Can only stay in my memories
I looked up to the sky, sighed, and suddenly got over it thoroughly!
